Friday 4 November 2011
Tuesday 1 November 2011
Wednesday 26 October 2011
NaNoWriMo Alert
Wow, it's been a long time since I updated this bad boy. Nothing much to report. I've been working a ton and playing some games left, right and centre.
Also, next week is the beginning of NaNoWriMo - which I am taking part of. I can't decide whether or not that's a good idea or not.
We shall see.
Anyway, I plan to do some more vlogging soon so keep an eye out for that!
Also, next week is the beginning of NaNoWriMo - which I am taking part of. I can't decide whether or not that's a good idea or not.
We shall see.
Anyway, I plan to do some more vlogging soon so keep an eye out for that!
Sunday 16 October 2011
A sickly week
I haven't updated for a week now. I can imagine why. As I mentioned in the last post back in the while was that I was feeling poorly and unmotivated.
I had also spent most of my week at work doing late shifts and still trying to overcome this bug that has infected me.
Nothing much in the regards to latest news either. Aside from the lone mention that the Nerdemic will hopefully get it's butt into gear and a team (including me) will bring it back to full glory.
I already have a plan to publising the site over here in the UK but am unable to do such a manueur yet until the following conditions are met.
1. The site design is revamped to be the desired appearance the team wants
2. If I actually get myself to become the Nerdemic podcast host.
Regarding the fact of becoming the host. I don't know how I feel about it. People seem to think that a British host on a mostly American based audience would go down really well but I'm still quite ambigious. Never the less once everything settles down and things start getting back to the way we want them, then things will seriously start rolling back in!
Nerdemic! It's coming back!
I had also spent most of my week at work doing late shifts and still trying to overcome this bug that has infected me.
Nothing much in the regards to latest news either. Aside from the lone mention that the Nerdemic will hopefully get it's butt into gear and a team (including me) will bring it back to full glory.
I already have a plan to publising the site over here in the UK but am unable to do such a manueur yet until the following conditions are met.
1. The site design is revamped to be the desired appearance the team wants
2. If I actually get myself to become the Nerdemic podcast host.
Regarding the fact of becoming the host. I don't know how I feel about it. People seem to think that a British host on a mostly American based audience would go down really well but I'm still quite ambigious. Never the less once everything settles down and things start getting back to the way we want them, then things will seriously start rolling back in!
Nerdemic! It's coming back!
Monday 10 October 2011
A doodle
I never like "Drawing". I always feel like I can't do a good job when I'm actually tasked with creating something onto paper. However, I do enjoy Doodling and find that half of the things that I doodle actually come across quite good. So, this is something that I did during my lunch break at work yesterday.
In general I had a stressful day on Sunday. To start with I was sick and not in the best of moods to manage a retail outlet, and then when I got there I realised that I wasn't left much in the safe to work with for the day's trade. (However that was because the day before was that shop's most busiest day to date!)
So in the long and short of it, my staff and I were just barely surviving throughout the day with minimiumal change.
So this doodle was decicated to Emma, our youngest staff member and how I explained to her what should happen when presented with a customer who is eager to exchange a £20 note for a 59p item.
Enjoy.
In general I had a stressful day on Sunday. To start with I was sick and not in the best of moods to manage a retail outlet, and then when I got there I realised that I wasn't left much in the safe to work with for the day's trade. (However that was because the day before was that shop's most busiest day to date!)
So in the long and short of it, my staff and I were just barely surviving throughout the day with minimiumal change.
So this doodle was decicated to Emma, our youngest staff member and how I explained to her what should happen when presented with a customer who is eager to exchange a £20 note for a 59p item.
Enjoy.
Saturday 8 October 2011
My photos came today!
I lol'd my head off when I realised that my expressions in these photos make me look so durp but can you blame me?! Both Joe and Eve were so lovely and kick ass! I was excited and nervous! So without further a due Here!
Thursday 6 October 2011
Review: Rise of Nightmares
Again! I'm too lazy to re-write my article so go to the Nerdemic to find it!
http://nerdemic.com/2011/review-rise-of-nightmares/#more
http://nerdemic.com/2011/review-rise-of-nightmares/#more
Tuesday 4 October 2011
The InFamous 2 Question
The inFamous 2 Question
*Warning! This article contains some big spoilers for the
end of inFamous 2! Do not read if you have yet to finish the game. Thank you*
I have to say that the inFamous video game series has to be
one of my favourite of all time. Not just because of the fluid action and
sandbox game play, but because of the great lengths the developers went to make
such a compelling and deep storyline which borders on the possible.
So to those who are unaware about the inFamous games, you
play as Cole MacGrath who after a massive explosion finds himself with the
power of electricity. It turns out that Cole is a Conduit, basically a
superhuman and that it was a genetic thing. So for all we knew, we could be a
Conduit and never know it.
Cole’s main mission throughout the length of both games was
to fight this approaching threat called “The Beast” yet as the second game
draws closer to the end, you soon realise that things are more complicated then
they appear.
A fatal plague sweeps across the world, it soon comes to
light that Ray Field radiation is the cause of the plague which kills humans
but spares Conduits. (A Ray Field Machine is a device that sucks human energy
inside, creating a large explosion and activating any Conduits who were caught
up in the blast radius)
And at the end of the game, you have two final choices.
Use a device called the RFI and eradicate all of the Ray
Field Radiation in the world...but kill every single Conduit as the side effect...Or
destroy the RFI and use your powers to doom mankind and convert as many of them
to Conduits before the plague kills them all.
Given the sheer amount of pressure Cole is under from the
beginning of the game series to be strong enough to take down the beast, I
found this decision almost impossible to decide upon...I did not want to die,
but I did not want to doom all of mankind...But then I would be killing every
single Conduit as well, yet saving millions more.
My thought process was long and stretched and in the end, I
decided on one choice...
As the person I am...I believe in the usage of sacrifice for
the greater good...The needs of the many outweigh the needs of the few, and so
I sacrificed all of those Conduits and myself to save mankind...
Now tell me, as I’m extremely curious to YOUR answer...What
would you have done? Doomed yourself and saved the world, or doom the world and
rebuild it in your own image...?
Monday 3 October 2011
I shook the hand of an idol and hugged a wonderful actress
I have been in London today since the early hours of the morning. Gary and I were set upon a journey to go to the London Entertainment Expo abd see some top Sci-fi stars.
Okay. Maybe it was just me as Gaz wasn't nearly as interested in Sci-fi then I was. But alas we pushed on! I must say that I'm particularly surprised with myself today as I handled myself.
Basically I met two of my most favourite Sci-fi actors/actresses. I shook hands with Joe Flanigan. (John Shepard from Stargate Atlantis) Plus I got a cuddle from Eve Myles (Gwen Cooper from Torchwood) as I pretty much whispered in her ear how much I loved her.
True story!
Here are a few shots that Gaz took as I met the stars and I should have more photos when I get home
Okay. Maybe it was just me as Gaz wasn't nearly as interested in Sci-fi then I was. But alas we pushed on! I must say that I'm particularly surprised with myself today as I handled myself.
Basically I met two of my most favourite Sci-fi actors/actresses. I shook hands with Joe Flanigan. (John Shepard from Stargate Atlantis) Plus I got a cuddle from Eve Myles (Gwen Cooper from Torchwood) as I pretty much whispered in her ear how much I loved her.
True story!
Here are a few shots that Gaz took as I met the stars and I should have more photos when I get home
Friday 30 September 2011
Thursday 29 September 2011
I can not believe it...
So last year, I discovered a brand new store open up right across from my old job, right? Imagine my amazement when I realise it'll become a comic book store. I was so excited that I applied for a job there as a clerk. I managed to get through all of the interviews and got to the finals but sadly, whilst I was exploring Amsterdam Zoo I got a phone call from the owner saying that I didn't get the job.
Yeah it sucked. So I basically went to my old job after that, watching this new store open up and become a great place that I sadly couldn't be apart off. I will admit I got angry about it for a while but by now I've completely gotten over it. It's now pretty much been a full year since that happened to me.
And on my day off today, I went to the comic book store and saw the manager, speaking to him about how things were and if he could order me "The Walking Dead Volume 7" so he'd ran out. Then he confesses that if I was still available to work, I could have a full time position. I was speechless, I could have said Yes but now I have responsibilities at my current work. He understood and told me that if I wanted it, it was there for me!
SWEET!
On the other note, I've just gotten back from the Hospital as well after a long three year hiatus. Basically it was all for the purpose of having my hearing tested as I was almost certain that it was beginning to decline. Yet for the first time ever. The doctor said that my hearing had not changed since those three years and looking past all of the scars and trauma from the years of surgeon, he said it looked healthy. All in all, good news...
Yeah it sucked. So I basically went to my old job after that, watching this new store open up and become a great place that I sadly couldn't be apart off. I will admit I got angry about it for a while but by now I've completely gotten over it. It's now pretty much been a full year since that happened to me.
And on my day off today, I went to the comic book store and saw the manager, speaking to him about how things were and if he could order me "The Walking Dead Volume 7" so he'd ran out. Then he confesses that if I was still available to work, I could have a full time position. I was speechless, I could have said Yes but now I have responsibilities at my current work. He understood and told me that if I wanted it, it was there for me!
SWEET!
On the other note, I've just gotten back from the Hospital as well after a long three year hiatus. Basically it was all for the purpose of having my hearing tested as I was almost certain that it was beginning to decline. Yet for the first time ever. The doctor said that my hearing had not changed since those three years and looking past all of the scars and trauma from the years of surgeon, he said it looked healthy. All in all, good news...
Monday 26 September 2011
Near the end of September
First post of the day.
After spending all night playing with Ivan and Monkey on Left 4 Dead, I woke up at around 9AM and tried to carry on with my chores. An hour or two later, I got a phone call from work with my shifts for the week.
Monday (Today) Come in at 1pm and finish at 5:45pm
Tuesday - All day
Wednesday - All day
Thursday - Day off *(Since I asked for it, I'm going to the hospital on that day anyway.)
Friday - Morning shift. (Since I'm treating my mum to a special event and I wanted to make sure I could be there to see her with it.)
Saturday - Day off (I plan to go to London anyway...It's a surprise)
Sunday - All day
So if I look at that rationally for a moment, that means that I'm working a total off....
Monday - 4 hours
Tuesday - 8 hours
Wednesday - 8 hours
Friday - 4 hours
Sunday - 6 hours
...30 hours. That's nowhere near as bad as last week (51 hours)
So time to chill for the moment, update my life blog and get ready for an early night sleep as I'll be needing it.
I will now leave you all with my projects.
I walked a total 12,675 steps today. (6.00 miles) and here is my progression sheet.
After spending all night playing with Ivan and Monkey on Left 4 Dead, I woke up at around 9AM and tried to carry on with my chores. An hour or two later, I got a phone call from work with my shifts for the week.
Monday (Today) Come in at 1pm and finish at 5:45pm
Tuesday - All day
Wednesday - All day
Thursday - Day off *(Since I asked for it, I'm going to the hospital on that day anyway.)
Friday - Morning shift. (Since I'm treating my mum to a special event and I wanted to make sure I could be there to see her with it.)
Saturday - Day off (I plan to go to London anyway...It's a surprise)
Sunday - All day
So if I look at that rationally for a moment, that means that I'm working a total off....
Monday - 4 hours
Tuesday - 8 hours
Wednesday - 8 hours
Friday - 4 hours
Sunday - 6 hours
...30 hours. That's nowhere near as bad as last week (51 hours)
So time to chill for the moment, update my life blog and get ready for an early night sleep as I'll be needing it.
I will now leave you all with my projects.
I walked a total 12,675 steps today. (6.00 miles) and here is my progression sheet.
My best Hunter score ever!
Saturday 24 September 2011
The Wanderer Minecraft project
Say hello to my small Minecraft project. It's called "The Wanderer" and basically it's not about building things or crafting as such, but rather just travelling the endless wilds of a Minecraft world.
Friday 23 September 2011
I think I may be ill
Yuck. I've just finished work and now I feel pretty rotten...I keep sneezing, runny nose, slight headaches and aching limbs...I'm going to call it and say I'm coming down with a cold.
And to make the matters worse, I promised my boss that I was going to cover for him for tomorrow morning...Hopefully I'll be strong enough to run a busy shop during that time.
News wise. Nothing much I can say aside from the fact that I deleveled today because I forgot my Pedometer at home. So I instantly lost 6,250 EXP and went down to Level 21.
On the plus side, keep an eye out for a small Minecraft project I'm working on...Maybe it'll be alot of fun to watch or maybe just completely unbearable.
And to make the matters worse, I promised my boss that I was going to cover for him for tomorrow morning...Hopefully I'll be strong enough to run a busy shop during that time.
News wise. Nothing much I can say aside from the fact that I deleveled today because I forgot my Pedometer at home. So I instantly lost 6,250 EXP and went down to Level 21.
On the plus side, keep an eye out for a small Minecraft project I'm working on...Maybe it'll be alot of fun to watch or maybe just completely unbearable.
Thursday 22 September 2011
A larger entry than usual
So I made a Vlog yesterday when I was back home at my Mum's and I've just decided to upload it now. Not very long and you get to see how tired I look after the immense amount of hours I've done for work this week.
Speaking of work, I was pretty amazed to see my Manager inside the store when I went to go open up this morning. He had been there for a long time and spent most of the night working there with another colleague as well, trying to get as much of the Christmas stock out as he can...
You know what though, me and him really don't see eye to eye from time to time and sometimes we have rows but I completely felt sorry for him this week. And you want to know what the worst part of it was...today was his day off!
So for me, that meant I had to try and help him out the best I could.
So I rang him up after he went home and said,
"How would you like to have a nice relaxing lay-in on Saturday?"
To which silence followed and he wanted to know what I was thinking.
Basically, I'm opening the store up for him for 4 hours on Saturday (Which is my day off) and giving him those 4 hours to rest up and spend with his wife and kids.
Seriously, the guy deserves a break for the amount of work he's done this week. It was the least I could do.
It's all about self-sacrifice. And I know the feeling when someone goes out of their way to make someone else's life just a bit easier is one of the best feelings in the entire world...
There we go then children. I did an 11 hour shift today so I'm pretty tired. I'm going to go watch the new episode of Supernatural. God I hope it's better than the last one that was on....that was just awful...
Oh, and I almost forgot. My Experience points for the day.
Basically, 17,753 steps (8.40 miles)
Wednesday 21 September 2011
Day off
I can't believe it!
My first day off in the week, and I actually accumulate more steps from my pedometer than my working days.
20,651 in total! That's 9.77 miles.
Jesus! So, here's the sheet for it.
On a more depressing side-note. I was about 95% finished on a Minecraft Custom Story Map when it accidentally blew the fuck up....So...yeah....That's kinda pissed me off....
My first day off in the week, and I actually accumulate more steps from my pedometer than my working days.
20,651 in total! That's 9.77 miles.
Jesus! So, here's the sheet for it.
On a more depressing side-note. I was about 95% finished on a Minecraft Custom Story Map when it accidentally blew the fuck up....So...yeah....That's kinda pissed me off....
Tuesday 20 September 2011
You would never believe...
...how much fucking work I've done today?
I got in early, I restocked, I ran around, I filled, I served, I scanned...I played nice with the visiting MP AND trained a new manager on how to do her job.
So, I'm tired.
Sadly, I lost my pedometer for the first three hours of the morning so I suffer a de-level. (-4000XP) /Sadface
But grand total, I had 16,781 steps which comes to 7.94 miles...
*Yawn* Now my feet sting....
I got in early, I restocked, I ran around, I filled, I served, I scanned...I played nice with the visiting MP AND trained a new manager on how to do her job.
So, I'm tired.
Sadly, I lost my pedometer for the first three hours of the morning so I suffer a de-level. (-4000XP) /Sadface
But grand total, I had 16,781 steps which comes to 7.94 miles...
*Yawn* Now my feet sting....
Monday 19 September 2011
Level 9 - Level 13
Today. Work was super stressful. I've never had to do so much work as I had too today. And you want to know what makes that 100% worse? I'll be doing twice as much as today, tomorrow...
So here are my results anyway...
14,557 steps....which means 6.89 miles. Not as much as Sunday's but that's because I wasn't running around like a headless chicken, rather sitting in a very uncomfortable position, restocking everything...
Anyway. I've moved up from Level 9 to Level 13! Hurray!
So here are my results anyway...
14,557 steps....which means 6.89 miles. Not as much as Sunday's but that's because I wasn't running around like a headless chicken, rather sitting in a very uncomfortable position, restocking everything...
Anyway. I've moved up from Level 9 to Level 13! Hurray!
Sunday 18 September 2011
This is a test
So I am using my iPhone to write this entry. It's an app that I wanted to try. Hopefully it'll look pretty decent.
To accompany this pointless message. I will attach a pointless picture too.
Enjoy.
To accompany this pointless message. I will attach a pointless picture too.
Enjoy.
Life in general
So, you know when you wake up in the morning and you worry that you seem to be wasting your time on this planet just worrying about the small details. Shit like work, friends, family and other non-self related stuff.
I know in a way that sounds incredibly selfish yet hear me out. I have to see if everyone shares a similar opinion.
One of the main things I've always wanted to do with my life was be a writer. Have a book published and have people remember me through my adventures and words.
And everyday when I'm not writing, it feels as though I'm wasting potential time and effort when I can be a single step closer to fulfilling that dream. I want to write. I want to write so bad that it's quite painful from time to time when I fail.
The only thing I can think of that may help me is locking myself up in a hotel somewhere for a day or two, away from sound and distractions and just write something, anything!
Actually, now that I think about that, that sounds like a good idea...
Anyway, I digress from my point.
I mean to say that some days I simply hate it when I want to spend all day writing or doing something else which benefits me in my own way when my other ties in life pull me back.
For me, this would be trying to get my dream completed. To get a book published!
What about you guys? What would you happily lock yourself away for in order to achieve?
I know in a way that sounds incredibly selfish yet hear me out. I have to see if everyone shares a similar opinion.
One of the main things I've always wanted to do with my life was be a writer. Have a book published and have people remember me through my adventures and words.
And everyday when I'm not writing, it feels as though I'm wasting potential time and effort when I can be a single step closer to fulfilling that dream. I want to write. I want to write so bad that it's quite painful from time to time when I fail.
The only thing I can think of that may help me is locking myself up in a hotel somewhere for a day or two, away from sound and distractions and just write something, anything!
Actually, now that I think about that, that sounds like a good idea...
Anyway, I digress from my point.
I mean to say that some days I simply hate it when I want to spend all day writing or doing something else which benefits me in my own way when my other ties in life pull me back.
For me, this would be trying to get my dream completed. To get a book published!
What about you guys? What would you happily lock yourself away for in order to achieve?
Left 4 Dead 2 Expert Solo Finale Runs
Photos from long time ago
I was looking through some of my old photograph folders from years ago. I'm surprised I still have them to be honest...Let's put some of my favourite back up here for others to see.
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| Cradle of Forest |
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| My Baby Wolf - Flo - Rest in piece |
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| Blood and Tears - INCURSION |
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| Little Big Adventure |
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| Morning Life |
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| Love Moon Flower - GETSUREKA |
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| Happiness |
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| "It's that train..." |
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| Decay |
First day at work using my EXP counter
And boy oh boy did it show!
Basically, I racked up a grand total of 15,795 Steps. That actually comes to 7.47 miles so that's pretty far for a small store.
So yeah, I can imagine that my next few days are going to be very similar since I'm working all day from tomorrow and Tuesday. But in the end, holy shit that's a lot of steps!
So here is the results table for everyone to see how much I've increased.
Hurray! I went from Level 2 to Level 9! Not bad! Not bad!
Saturday 17 September 2011
The new EXP game!
So in an effort to make something new with my blog and everyday life - I'm creating an EXP bar for my life! YAY!
Basically, what that means is I purchased for myself today a Pedometer (Those step counting things) and what I'm going to do is pretty much count all of my steps for the day and then ADD those as Experience points for myself!
For example: From first having bought the instrument to sitting here now. I accumulated 2,640 steps (1.25 Miles) and therefore turn into 2,640 EXP points.
Check the screen out below!
So now, I am LEVEL 2! YAY!
Basically, what that means is I purchased for myself today a Pedometer (Those step counting things) and what I'm going to do is pretty much count all of my steps for the day and then ADD those as Experience points for myself!
For example: From first having bought the instrument to sitting here now. I accumulated 2,640 steps (1.25 Miles) and therefore turn into 2,640 EXP points.
Check the screen out below!
So now, I am LEVEL 2! YAY!
Thursday 15 September 2011
My own video game theme
So you know when you play a video game, mostly an RPG or JRPG and you notice that once a particular character appears on the screen, a special soundtrack plays. Well, I've decided that there is one certain piece of music that has captured me so well, that if it were possible, this would be my own video game theme.
In a way, this is a little bit of a cheat since the music already fits for a character, but I just don't know why. This music just seems to...get me...
So everyone have a listen.
In a way, this is a little bit of a cheat since the music already fits for a character, but I just don't know why. This music just seems to...get me...
So everyone have a listen.
Wednesday 14 September 2011
Project Idea
So this is the very beginning of my small project. It's only the first part, I plan to have two more parts. Let me know if you like it...Trust me, things will start to get really strange from now on.
The winter coldness had come early this year. The autumn period seemed to only last for a month or so as all life on the United Kingdom began to dwindle. Skies turned dark and grey by late afternoons and the silhouette figures of distant trees were now corpses surrounded by barren snowy lands.
Even the infamous M1 carriageway was almost silent in response to the sudden whiteout weather that howled across the mid regions of England. Just before J17, a lone figure stood on a narrow walkway bridge overlooking the almost deserted motorway. The individual wore a long winter coat with fur etchings around his neck. The hood was also raised as to block the majority of the snowfall that came crashing down.
The person stood in silence, slowly taking small inhales to his cigarette, followed by short drags as the ash blew back into his face from the wild winds. Buried beneath all that winter coat and warm dressing was a young man by the name of Josh Patterson, only five hours away from his twenty first birthday; the young man found himself heading north under calamitous circumstances and seemingly very little way out. He clutched to a small carrier bag which carried supplies he’d purchased at the nearby petrol station. Some crisps, drinks, chocolate confectionary, everything he wanted for an entertaining evening in the middle of nowhere to soon celebrate his approaching birthday.
He looked down to his watch, the hands read 8:32pm yet he knew it was five minutes fast. He calculated that he’d been away now for over 30 minutes and knew he’d get shit from his ‘mentor’ if he didn’t’ start making his way back. He flicked the remains of the spent butt into the path of a lone oncoming lorry below and made his way to the other side of the bridge, towards the small hotel.
He passed only a handful of cars in the parking lot and saw only five lit rooms from the outside as he approached the two story building. The weather certainly was hitting the country hard and even barren places like these were starting to feel the effects. Josh imagined this place being booming with worn-out truckers and holiday runners yet only saw the few stragglers in their place.
Josh stepped into the warm reception room; a young girl roughly his own age was sat behind the counter immersed in her own little world as she continued to play away with her mobile phone. Josh pulled away the hood from his coat to reveal his matted chocolate brown hair and recognisable features. A scar was visible from the middle of his nose and ran downwards towards his left cheek, it wasn’t an unsettling scar to look at for most people, but for Josh it was nothing more than a constant reminder, a battle-wound to a war he knew nothing about.
The girl behind the counter looked up from her phone for a moment and smiled at him, it was a brief smile which Josh failed to response too. He began to make his way towards the main door with his key-card when she called out to him.
“Is it still snowing out there mate?” Her accent was thick and strangely not local. Josh pondered a moment to figure it out but instead just wanted the conversation over.
“Yeah,” He walked forward, intent to carry on.
“Did it seem like it was going to ease up soon?”
Josh sighed, he counted around three more steps and he wouldn’t have had to deal with it. Instead he whirled and came back into the girl’s point of view. He studied her for a moment, blonde hair, fake nails, dark green eyes and her name badge said SUSAN spelt with a heart instead of an A.
Cute,
“Can’t say...what did the weather channel mention?” Josh asked; pointing towards the television set behind her as she spun round on her swivel office chair. The BBC news was on but the sound was muted, as the girl spun back towards him.
“They said it was going to stop tonight, but I don’t believe ‘em. The usual BS in my opinion,” Susan muttered as her glare briefly returned to her phone. “My boyfriend was meant to pick me up an hour ago but the prick said it was too dangerous to get here.”
“Smart man,” Josh replied as Susan looked back to him, her eyes curved with a sly angle as she check the man out from head to bottom.
“Whatever, I just wanna go home. I’m bored.”
Josh did not reply. The bait was thrown out and he was fully aware of it. Years ago as a quiet nerd, he would have been oblivious to a direct flirt such as that. Yet in the years since then he managed to learn a thing or two about the human behaviour, especially women. It was at that moment he came to realise that during his life, he had managed to undergo three completely different psychological profiles in the space of twenty years. First was the beaten down ego and crippling neglect of an infant, followed by the attitude inflation and hardened front to protect the softness within and now, this.
“So are you here on holiday or something?” Susan asked; breaking Josh’s thoughts and dragging him back to reality.
“Um, no - Nothing like that; just passing through. Should be gone by morning more I guess.”
“You came with your granddad right?”
Josh smirked and croaked a short laugh. He imagined for a moment the comparison he was making between the man he knew as granddad from his childhood and the man now waiting for him just a few rooms down the hall. The comparison was clearly mismatched.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to laugh. No, he’s not my granddad.”
“Well he can’t be your dad; he’s pretty old if that’s the case.”
“Nah, he’s not my dad either.”
Susan paused; Josh could see the cogs of her brain working away as she suddenly blurted out the first thing that came to her.
“So, what - He’s like your sugar daddy or something? Does that mean you’re gay?”
Josh laughed; it wasn’t a real functional laugh, just a laugh. He shook his head and suddenly was struck with mental images he’d rather had forgotten as soon as he could.
“He’s...like a family friend. And no, I’m not gay.”
“Well that’s good then. Was going to say that was a bit of a waste then if you were.”
The conversation began to sour away, the impact of their discussion ran its cause and Josh was just about ready to bid goodnight when he suddenly began to feel it. The pull...
It was small at first, no more than a lingering feeling or nagging remainder that he had forgotten something, but quickly it grew in strength and intensity. His eyes watered as he wiped them away and sound began to flux in levels and tones. The feelings were only temporary but Josh knew full well that they would return with stronger ambitions if he didn’t do something soon.
The hunger...was growing again, and as he looked back towards Susan. He knew there was no other way.
The winter coldness had come early this year. The autumn period seemed to only last for a month or so as all life on the United Kingdom began to dwindle. Skies turned dark and grey by late afternoons and the silhouette figures of distant trees were now corpses surrounded by barren snowy lands.
Even the infamous M1 carriageway was almost silent in response to the sudden whiteout weather that howled across the mid regions of England. Just before J17, a lone figure stood on a narrow walkway bridge overlooking the almost deserted motorway. The individual wore a long winter coat with fur etchings around his neck. The hood was also raised as to block the majority of the snowfall that came crashing down.
The person stood in silence, slowly taking small inhales to his cigarette, followed by short drags as the ash blew back into his face from the wild winds. Buried beneath all that winter coat and warm dressing was a young man by the name of Josh Patterson, only five hours away from his twenty first birthday; the young man found himself heading north under calamitous circumstances and seemingly very little way out. He clutched to a small carrier bag which carried supplies he’d purchased at the nearby petrol station. Some crisps, drinks, chocolate confectionary, everything he wanted for an entertaining evening in the middle of nowhere to soon celebrate his approaching birthday.
He looked down to his watch, the hands read 8:32pm yet he knew it was five minutes fast. He calculated that he’d been away now for over 30 minutes and knew he’d get shit from his ‘mentor’ if he didn’t’ start making his way back. He flicked the remains of the spent butt into the path of a lone oncoming lorry below and made his way to the other side of the bridge, towards the small hotel.
He passed only a handful of cars in the parking lot and saw only five lit rooms from the outside as he approached the two story building. The weather certainly was hitting the country hard and even barren places like these were starting to feel the effects. Josh imagined this place being booming with worn-out truckers and holiday runners yet only saw the few stragglers in their place.
Josh stepped into the warm reception room; a young girl roughly his own age was sat behind the counter immersed in her own little world as she continued to play away with her mobile phone. Josh pulled away the hood from his coat to reveal his matted chocolate brown hair and recognisable features. A scar was visible from the middle of his nose and ran downwards towards his left cheek, it wasn’t an unsettling scar to look at for most people, but for Josh it was nothing more than a constant reminder, a battle-wound to a war he knew nothing about.
The girl behind the counter looked up from her phone for a moment and smiled at him, it was a brief smile which Josh failed to response too. He began to make his way towards the main door with his key-card when she called out to him.
“Is it still snowing out there mate?” Her accent was thick and strangely not local. Josh pondered a moment to figure it out but instead just wanted the conversation over.
“Yeah,” He walked forward, intent to carry on.
“Did it seem like it was going to ease up soon?”
Josh sighed, he counted around three more steps and he wouldn’t have had to deal with it. Instead he whirled and came back into the girl’s point of view. He studied her for a moment, blonde hair, fake nails, dark green eyes and her name badge said SUSAN spelt with a heart instead of an A.
Cute,
“Can’t say...what did the weather channel mention?” Josh asked; pointing towards the television set behind her as she spun round on her swivel office chair. The BBC news was on but the sound was muted, as the girl spun back towards him.
“They said it was going to stop tonight, but I don’t believe ‘em. The usual BS in my opinion,” Susan muttered as her glare briefly returned to her phone. “My boyfriend was meant to pick me up an hour ago but the prick said it was too dangerous to get here.”
“Smart man,” Josh replied as Susan looked back to him, her eyes curved with a sly angle as she check the man out from head to bottom.
“Whatever, I just wanna go home. I’m bored.”
Josh did not reply. The bait was thrown out and he was fully aware of it. Years ago as a quiet nerd, he would have been oblivious to a direct flirt such as that. Yet in the years since then he managed to learn a thing or two about the human behaviour, especially women. It was at that moment he came to realise that during his life, he had managed to undergo three completely different psychological profiles in the space of twenty years. First was the beaten down ego and crippling neglect of an infant, followed by the attitude inflation and hardened front to protect the softness within and now, this.
“So are you here on holiday or something?” Susan asked; breaking Josh’s thoughts and dragging him back to reality.
“Um, no - Nothing like that; just passing through. Should be gone by morning more I guess.”
“You came with your granddad right?”
Josh smirked and croaked a short laugh. He imagined for a moment the comparison he was making between the man he knew as granddad from his childhood and the man now waiting for him just a few rooms down the hall. The comparison was clearly mismatched.
“Sorry, I didn’t mean to laugh. No, he’s not my granddad.”
“Well he can’t be your dad; he’s pretty old if that’s the case.”
“Nah, he’s not my dad either.”
Susan paused; Josh could see the cogs of her brain working away as she suddenly blurted out the first thing that came to her.
“So, what - He’s like your sugar daddy or something? Does that mean you’re gay?”
Josh laughed; it wasn’t a real functional laugh, just a laugh. He shook his head and suddenly was struck with mental images he’d rather had forgotten as soon as he could.
“He’s...like a family friend. And no, I’m not gay.”
“Well that’s good then. Was going to say that was a bit of a waste then if you were.”
The conversation began to sour away, the impact of their discussion ran its cause and Josh was just about ready to bid goodnight when he suddenly began to feel it. The pull...
It was small at first, no more than a lingering feeling or nagging remainder that he had forgotten something, but quickly it grew in strength and intensity. His eyes watered as he wiped them away and sound began to flux in levels and tones. The feelings were only temporary but Josh knew full well that they would return with stronger ambitions if he didn’t do something soon.
The hunger...was growing again, and as he looked back towards Susan. He knew there was no other way.
Saturday 10 September 2011
I hate my job...
So let me just start this blog entry will some additional background information.
So I work, naturally. I work in a retail outlet in my local town (and no I'm not going to say what it is)
Around three months ago or so I was promoted to become Sunday Supervisor, which means that I work the entire shift on Sunday - running the shop. At first it was kinda difficult for me to come to grips with but I soon managed to get the hang of the situation.
Now, a month after that, we opened a second store at the opposing shopping prescient that was three times as big as our original one, and as you can imagine it's a very very busy place...In fact, so busy that the money we take from the original has started to dwindle and the other continues to sky-rocket.
Now, a little more back information for everyone, namely about my manager.
He is a very hot/cold person, and perhaps the worst thing I can say about him is that he reminds me alot of my biological father. This sometimes leads to difficult situations regarding disobeying him or finding the right way to confront a situation without completely losing my cool. And perhaps the tensest part of this all is that he is aware of these similarities and plays into them alot...
Anyway, after the past week, my manager has been ill and therefore it has been up to me and a younger supervisor to run the entire shop by ourselves without much guidance. During this time however, we were also tasked with training a new member of staff who was joining the company to become the new Assistant Manager. He seems like a nice guy but he's very odd at the same time...
I don't know what it is but sometimes when I talk to him, it feels as though he's understanding what I'm saying and refusing to acknowledge it...Kinda frustrating. Also he refused to talk to any other staff members on the shop floor unless he absolutely had too which annoyed me because that implies he thinks he's better than everyone else around him.
Personally I don't know, and personally I don't care...Until now...
So, you know I mentioned that my boss was sick last week, well the younger supervisor took this as him taking the week off without consent and shared his own opinion to the new guy about our manager...
Now, sometimes the manager really does get underneath my skin, and I can certainly see this new guy doing the exact same...but, even I can agree with them that that was a silly idea...
Anyway...With the long and short of it now....let me get to the point...
The younger supervisor only works two and a half days now after coming into conflict with the manager about his hours. Because of his reluctant behaviour to his hours/shifts. It means that I have to take over for him, meaning that I now work around 5-6 days a week with absolutely shit pay.
So today I discover that my boss now wants to transfer me from my small shop to the larger one (which I absolutely hate!) and send the younger supervisor to my post...making his life somewhat completely easier, while forcing my hand and making me work 100% harder...
And whilst texting the young lad and telling him that we've swapped locations now, he told me to watch my back and not do so much work for him (our boss) since he'll try to get away with it. Now...I can kinda agree to that to some extent, but...
As far as I can see...out of all the guilty parties in this situation. I'm the only poor motherfucker who suffers because of it...Why do I have to be transferred? Therefore working more and more in a location that I can't stand...
So I work, naturally. I work in a retail outlet in my local town (and no I'm not going to say what it is)
Now, a month after that, we opened a second store at the opposing shopping prescient that was three times as big as our original one, and as you can imagine it's a very very busy place...In fact, so busy that the money we take from the original has started to dwindle and the other continues to sky-rocket.
Now, a little more back information for everyone, namely about my manager.
He is a very hot/cold person, and perhaps the worst thing I can say about him is that he reminds me alot of my biological father. This sometimes leads to difficult situations regarding disobeying him or finding the right way to confront a situation without completely losing my cool. And perhaps the tensest part of this all is that he is aware of these similarities and plays into them alot...
Anyway, after the past week, my manager has been ill and therefore it has been up to me and a younger supervisor to run the entire shop by ourselves without much guidance. During this time however, we were also tasked with training a new member of staff who was joining the company to become the new Assistant Manager. He seems like a nice guy but he's very odd at the same time...
I don't know what it is but sometimes when I talk to him, it feels as though he's understanding what I'm saying and refusing to acknowledge it...Kinda frustrating. Also he refused to talk to any other staff members on the shop floor unless he absolutely had too which annoyed me because that implies he thinks he's better than everyone else around him.
Personally I don't know, and personally I don't care...Until now...
So, you know I mentioned that my boss was sick last week, well the younger supervisor took this as him taking the week off without consent and shared his own opinion to the new guy about our manager...
Now, sometimes the manager really does get underneath my skin, and I can certainly see this new guy doing the exact same...but, even I can agree with them that that was a silly idea...
Anyway...With the long and short of it now....let me get to the point...
The younger supervisor only works two and a half days now after coming into conflict with the manager about his hours. Because of his reluctant behaviour to his hours/shifts. It means that I have to take over for him, meaning that I now work around 5-6 days a week with absolutely shit pay.
So today I discover that my boss now wants to transfer me from my small shop to the larger one (which I absolutely hate!) and send the younger supervisor to my post...making his life somewhat completely easier, while forcing my hand and making me work 100% harder...
And whilst texting the young lad and telling him that we've swapped locations now, he told me to watch my back and not do so much work for him (our boss) since he'll try to get away with it. Now...I can kinda agree to that to some extent, but...
As far as I can see...out of all the guilty parties in this situation. I'm the only poor motherfucker who suffers because of it...Why do I have to be transferred? Therefore working more and more in a location that I can't stand...
Thursday 8 September 2011
My mum's birthday and I'm a little drunk.
Jesus.
I'm a little drunk at the moment. I've been drinking at the local pub waiting for my mum to enjoy a birthday meal together. So I do apologise if my language and grammar is all over the place.
God I'm tired. This was me this morning as I was struggling to wake up and get going to open up the shop for work.
You would have never had thought my job description including the terms "Must get paid minimium wage yet do all manager's duties as well." I mean, fair dues and all that the manager is "sick" (at least I certainly hope he is...I believe he is.) but I'm honestly not qualified to run a full shop on my salary.
It is exchausted and I personally don't think I have what it takes to do this...
God Christmas is going to be a complete nightmare.
I mean, just to give you an idea of how bad retail was for me today was...An old granny had just walked past me as I was scanning products and all I could smell was shit. It was obvious she had gone to the toilet in her draws but SERIOUSLY. It was the most...disgusting thing I have ever smelt in my entire life.
So...yeah....fun facts for the day.
Tired now though, I reckon I will try and get an early night tomorrow...I'm going to have to cut a deal with another Supervisor tomorrow about Saturday since I will more than likely have to work.
I'm a little drunk at the moment. I've been drinking at the local pub waiting for my mum to enjoy a birthday meal together. So I do apologise if my language and grammar is all over the place.
God I'm tired. This was me this morning as I was struggling to wake up and get going to open up the shop for work.
You would have never had thought my job description including the terms "Must get paid minimium wage yet do all manager's duties as well." I mean, fair dues and all that the manager is "sick" (at least I certainly hope he is...I believe he is.) but I'm honestly not qualified to run a full shop on my salary.
It is exchausted and I personally don't think I have what it takes to do this...
God Christmas is going to be a complete nightmare.
I mean, just to give you an idea of how bad retail was for me today was...An old granny had just walked past me as I was scanning products and all I could smell was shit. It was obvious she had gone to the toilet in her draws but SERIOUSLY. It was the most...disgusting thing I have ever smelt in my entire life.
So...yeah....fun facts for the day.
Tired now though, I reckon I will try and get an early night tomorrow...I'm going to have to cut a deal with another Supervisor tomorrow about Saturday since I will more than likely have to work.
Monday 5 September 2011
Dead Air Expert Finale Solo Run- Left 4 Dead 2
I can't find the words to describe....how easy this was on Expert, in fact if it wasn't for an overenthusiastic Charger, I would have survive the entire event at 100% life!
Sunday 4 September 2011
Hard Rain Finale Expert Solo Run - Left 4 Dead 2
Fantastic....
So we have...
Dead Center
Dark Carnival
Swamp Fever
Hard Rain
The Parish
The Sacrifice
No Mercy
Dead Air
Blood Harvest
...left to go!
Friday 2 September 2011
Thursday 1 September 2011
A Left 4 Dead 2 Expert Finale Challenge
Yeah, everyone should check out this video I did on my YouTube, want to make it a video challenge series. Let me know what you think. As for my actual blog information, life has been busy. I've been working alot recently and as I mentioned before, I'm still underneath alot of pressure from my Writer's block, so...until then, just watch this video and see if you like.
Thanks!
Thanks!
Tuesday 30 August 2011
A pointless entry, yet an entry enough
I don't really know what to talk about today, I have had the entire day of work so I just relaxed and did nothing as I tend to on my days off. I wanted to be a little bit more creative with my time but found it difficult to do so. As I mentioned in previous entries, I'm still suffering from some nasty writer's block and still not truly having a writing project to work upon makes it very difficult.
So, I suppose this blog is really just to express that I'm still planning on updating it with something new everyday, but today offers something very boring.
So, instead I'd like to share with you all a picture that continually makes me laugh my head off.
Enjoy.
So, I suppose this blog is really just to express that I'm still planning on updating it with something new everyday, but today offers something very boring.
So, instead I'd like to share with you all a picture that continually makes me laugh my head off.
Enjoy.
Monday 29 August 2011
The Deus Ex Effect
So after finding myself finishing the video game "Deus Ex - Human Revolution" last night, I came to wonder how I would react in living in a world simiarly to that one.
I mean, the art of human augmentation is certainly an interesting concept....I remember before the game was released I was watching all of the trailers and stuff and finding it difficult to form an opinion from it.
I mean, check this video out firstly.
Seems fine enough, I can tell you for a fact that if I lost my arm or my sight or any major limb for that matter that I would defiantly be wanting a replacement, but would a machine really be sufficient?
There's something...strange about having a machine become apart of a human body, inter-grading and operating on a shared neural level to the rest of you. I mean it'll be 'cool' and if you are disabled, certainly 'beneficial' but it is still defiantly unsettlingly.
This trailer certainly seems to paint a more obscure yet paranoid view on the entire thing. Yet the points made are defiantly, and without a doubt very valid. How terrifying would it be if you discovered that whilst owning an augmentation, that the said company that provided it for you was actually hacking your brain, listening to your thoughts and influencing your behaviour?
Even the fact of having to use drugs to stave of rejection syndrome is something that I could really do without.
I certainly know a thing or too about addiction, and I can say that if I had to endue one simply to stay alive....(kinda like I did before) then I don't think I can.
Augmentation in the hands of good, honest people can certainly shape the future of mankind. Evolution is one of our most prized phislopyies yet the very defination of Evolution. "The process by which different kinds of living organisms are thought to have developed and diversified from earlier forms during the history of the earth" means that Augmentation could be our next stage up the ladder...
All I can say is, if put into a situation where I was augmented for survival. I will endue and fight for the reasoning that humanity isn't necessarily about flesh and blood. But rather our soul, and the moral compass we possess to do the best for our common goals.
I mean, the art of human augmentation is certainly an interesting concept....I remember before the game was released I was watching all of the trailers and stuff and finding it difficult to form an opinion from it.
I mean, check this video out firstly.
Seems fine enough, I can tell you for a fact that if I lost my arm or my sight or any major limb for that matter that I would defiantly be wanting a replacement, but would a machine really be sufficient?
There's something...strange about having a machine become apart of a human body, inter-grading and operating on a shared neural level to the rest of you. I mean it'll be 'cool' and if you are disabled, certainly 'beneficial' but it is still defiantly unsettlingly.
This trailer certainly seems to paint a more obscure yet paranoid view on the entire thing. Yet the points made are defiantly, and without a doubt very valid. How terrifying would it be if you discovered that whilst owning an augmentation, that the said company that provided it for you was actually hacking your brain, listening to your thoughts and influencing your behaviour?
Even the fact of having to use drugs to stave of rejection syndrome is something that I could really do without.
I certainly know a thing or too about addiction, and I can say that if I had to endue one simply to stay alive....(kinda like I did before) then I don't think I can.
Augmentation in the hands of good, honest people can certainly shape the future of mankind. Evolution is one of our most prized phislopyies yet the very defination of Evolution. "The process by which different kinds of living organisms are thought to have developed and diversified from earlier forms during the history of the earth" means that Augmentation could be our next stage up the ladder...
All I can say is, if put into a situation where I was augmented for survival. I will endue and fight for the reasoning that humanity isn't necessarily about flesh and blood. But rather our soul, and the moral compass we possess to do the best for our common goals.
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